Stripped Down and Simple.

Had a heated argument with boy.Sat down and think about it,was the whole thing my fault?am i being way too harsh with my words?did i really hurt him?i don't know.I love you,maybe that's what makes it so complicated.Have you realised that when it comes to other people's relationship,you can give good advices like it was your forte,but when it comes to your own,your mind just turn blank.i know i do have a temper,i hate flying off the handle and cussing people out,but honestly,some people only know one way of interacting with me,it drives me nuts that i'm so bad at controlling it.It's times like this i want to lie in my bed and just not talk to anyone.i've been rather snappy,maybe it's because of all the frustrations i have inside.i know i'm letting my emotions get the best of me.It's a norm for couples to quarrel i know,but whenever it happens to me uh oh uh oh.When you're younger,all you want to find in a guy was his looks,agree?To show off.But as i get older i realised the change,i wanted something else,a sense of security and reliability.My post is not about what important quality a man should have so i won't elaborate more.i've came to realised that getting into a relationship is not about his bank balance,or whether he has a bright future ahead as long as he's down to earth and not the kind to laze around,things will eventually worked out.i do not need a chauffeur,atm machine or someone to wait on me,cause there are some things you have to prove that you can do on your own,i don't want to depend totally on someone.He don't have to dressed up everyday for our date unless there's a need to,He don't have to bring me to posh restaurants,i prefer home cooked meals on special occasions.He don't have to hold my bag for me,just hold my hand instead.No car?we'll take the train.Anniversary?if we're too lazy to head out just stay home to cuddle and watch downloaded movies on the laptop with instant noodles.That's what i want,no dramas,no acts,no showing off,just you and me.The best love is the one that makes you a better person without changing you into someone other than yourself.When i'm in a relationship with a guy,it's not with him,but with his parents too.My boyfriend will notice this,and i'll grow to love them as if they were my parents cause while being over at his house,they would treat me like i was their daughter and part of the family.They would sit down and talk with me,give me hugs,cook for me,making me feel so welcome and accepted and i'll feel so happy about that.Being loved by my boyfriend's family is such a nice feeling,so if i were to break up with my boyfriend i would be breaking up with his parents too,and that would break my heart even more because i won't be able to see them like i used to.Of course it'll be nice if my boyfriend loves my parents like his own.I just want a stripped down and simple relationship.

Too much to ask for?Huh.