Just me and my pillow.

                                                       i think,i think too much,at night.
i tell myself,each and every night,stop over thinking,stop worrying,stop complaining,but it's still hard to sleep at night when there's so many thoughts going through your head.What,why,what ifs and how.The feeling where you stay up at night,ask yourself an infinite number of questions,and you sit there analyzing every meaningless action just to realise it don't mean anything to anyone else but you.The feeling where you wonder who truly cares and who's using you,who is there for you,and who's desperately waiting for you to fail.The feeling where you feel like you're not good enough and you need to to do this and this and this to be successful.The feeling where you get frustrated when you know it's impossible to be a hundred percent happy.The feeling where you question your value,your pride,yourself and everything,and you think.over think,all night.All you're left with is,you,yourself,and a very dark place.

If' it's not okay,it's not the end.

i'm a person who is fine one second and the next i'm depressing myself,until a point where i'm going through the entire day remembering everything bad thats ever happened to me.And it's hard,when people asked'why are you thinking so much'.i wish i knew,because if i do perhaps i could go to sleep with a peace of mind.i sometimes wish i could go back,to being the little me,no problems,no stress,going straight into deep slumber right after mummy's bedtime stories,hanging up the phone,thinking all about the cute and sweet conversations,and fall asleep happily when my head hits the pillow.where has all that gone to?i wish i knew how to make it all come back.
The worst part of it is,there's nothing wrong with my life,boyfriend's great,i'm not schooling so there's nothing wrong,family is okay,friends have been awesome too.So,what's wrong?i don't know.i don't know what i'm thinking.i know being an overthinker just makes the situation worse than it actually was,but sometimes you just can't help it,hopes there's someone out there that feels the same way i do.
Do you get that feeling that you don't want to talk to anyone anymore?You just want to be left alone for awhile,not to be lonely but to figure out what's going in your life.It's like you have to fight through some bad nights to earn the best days of your life.It's scary