I trust my boyfriend.So far,he's been great.He's never cheated on me or talk to other girls after we got together,even if he does he would explain himself.i know he'll always be here when i need him and he never fails to.He would talk about the future,so i guess this guy is serious about this thing.You see,sometimes,something has to come and disrupt it.i happened to see my boy's past blog and of course he'll blog about his ex-girlfy,i realised he used to say the completely same things to her that he now says to me.Ok,this guy is totally trustworthy but after seeing this,or should i say any girls who see this would get the feeling that he's trying to mould her into what he had with his past girl.On the other hand what else can a guy say?Their lines are always that few.'i miss you so much''Don't leave me i can't live without you''i must think before i say cause i'm afraid of making you angry''i'm afraid to lose you''you are really important to me' etc.I know my boyfriend would see this.i understand that all of these is in the past,but it still feels a little uneasy and insecure in the inside.i try not to think too much,although i did the first time i chanced upon his blog,i bring it up in boyfriend's face and we talked it out,he forgot about his password thou,it was two years ago,and i can't blame him for that,cause if i did,it would seem like i'm a petty and narrow minded girlfriend which i do not want to turn out to be.Everyone wants an honest,no mind games relationship,if only it was as easy as being said.Many guys would not bring up the subject of a break up even if he wants to nowadays,they would do things to make the girl take the initiative,and make it seems like the girl is the bad guy.Never underestimate a man's ability to make you feel guilty for his mistakes-Rihanna.My boyfriend knows very well i want him to be honest with me,i once told him 'if one day you find that you have no feelings for me any longer,tell me immediately' cause i'm not a person who likes to beat around the bush and waste time.He assured that he's also a person who makes clear of his feelings,so i'm quite happy about that.i hope when baby sees this he wouldn't misunderstand.i just wanted to share this because i'm sure there'll be other couples out there having this issue right now.
Note to baby:Hun,i still trust that you're serious about us and i love you.
When shit like this happens,this is the time to clear out the emotional clutter that holds us back in relationships.Whether or not you've dated a long line of losers,been cheated on or just suffered a run of bad luck in the relationship,it can be hard to leave the problems in the past where they belong,it's important to deal with it,cause it can play out again and again in your head.To deny it just perpetuates it.Although i haven't yet been cheated on,i know it's a fucked up thing,everyone does la actually.*oh god wei semo i feel like a bitch when i type this*If you really intend to accept a new guy into your life,you got to deal with it,bringing your mistrust from a previous partner to a new relationship is not being fair to your new partner.You won't fully invest in a relationship because you don't feel it's safe to be vulnerable.Open up baby,risk it.Who knows it might be a blessing in disguise?Again,If you meet a bastard who hurts you,he's not worth your time,and tears.Move on.Be honest about your feelings and don't dwell on your stressful feelings in silence,it'll be more constructive to share your worries and fears with your partner.Focus on the present,i'm still learning.
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