Sick girl is sick.

Tuesday night,i am down with flu,sore throat and to make it worse,those bloody rashes have to come out,just two nights before ladies night.Okay fine,never mind.I can't do anything tomorrow and have to stay home all day cause i think i'll scare the shit out of people if i do,they'll be like this girl has skin cancer.Fuckmylife.I'm beginning to sound like i need someone's sympathy,no ah,I still got my boyfriend.Sorry not sorry.Looks like my body isn't granting me any more sleep tonight,i slept for like 12hours straight in my last.Pull my internal organs out please.

Boyfriend.

My Man

This post would be about my boyfriend,as you can see.This boy here is nice,thoughtful and sweet.
He's always doing his part as a boyfriend,updating me wherever he goes,who he's with,what he's doing,unlike me.i got to admit that i haven't been doing my part as a girlfriend,i did not turn up at this place during Chinese New Year,i went clubbing without his permission,when i know he didn't like it.We still had an argument over this and alas he gave in.He's always the one reminding me how much he wants to keep this relationship going.i did not spend time with him as much.Ever since we got together,we've had our quarrels,arguments but we manage to go through them all.He's just so different from all the other guys i have met,although he always says that he have no confidence in himself,i find him standing out from all the other guys.i asked for a breakup for countless times but he's still here.When it's my fault,he took the blame.It was hard on him to have tolerated my attitude and bad temper.He's easily jealous and paranoid as well,which i find cute at times,cause he can be so damn paranoid and that really pisses me off.We never fail to talk on the phone everyday,and i love you has always been part of our message.He's willing to do anything and everything just to make me happy,things like lighting up a sky lantern near my place etc.The effort he put in for my birthday was priceless.This boy here is always complaining that he has got no car,no money and no future,but that's not all that matters right(thou it's important).The only guy there's absolutely nothing i can't talk to him about.This is my boy.Love him♥

Not getting anywhere,yet.

ONE TWO THREE FOUR.

I gave myself two choices,whether i should continue my lessons or just get a job first so that i can pay for my own fees (if i ever want to further my studies) in future.i decided to take up the second option,so my mum wouldn't have to waste another stack of thousands.i said waste because i haven't been schooling for a super long time already.Moreover,spending the money you earned on your own is a nice feeling.Already told mum about my decision,and drop hints to dad that i'll be getting into the working industry soon.So far,so good.
i think i should really start planning for the future,as in,i've always wanted a shop of my own.i know actions speaks louder than words,and money won't drop from the skies.i need to get a job pretty soon,so that i'll be one step closer to what i really want.People say work hard,play hard.For me,i've been playing too hard,neglecting almost everything else.
i've been telling myself how could i neglect something so important,i wouldn't be in this situation if i had prioritised.Fuck

Too many whys.

I wonder why.

At some point in life,as a girl.WHY the ViVi magazines girls all so cute and pretty?WHY Victoria Secret's girls all so sexy and classy?WHY i don't have higher and sharper nose?WHY my chin not v enough?WHY my boobs not Ecup?WHY i don't suit blonde hair?and it can go on and on.
Note this: You people must be thinking that when a girl says all of the bottom that i'm going to mention,she must be jealous.Eh,actually,for me,no.i'm just plain disgusted and trying to be mean.
Eg.WHY she not good looking also can get guy?
WHY she so thick skinned?
WHY she so turn off?
WHY so arrogant?etc.

Other WHYS would be:
WHY i never study hard in the past?WHY didn't i listened to my parents?WHY is she even my friend?WHY do i feel so upset over him?WHY did i do this in the first place?WHY i no money?If i were to take the time out to list all the whys, it would be never ending.
INSECURE MESS.
i believe almost all the girls has at least one thing about themselves they wish to change,after all first impression is darn important.If not,WHY would 1 out of 5 women in south korea undergo plastic surgery?For me i'll never go under the knife,but i think fillers for nose and chin are okay right?Boyfriend objects thou.Anyway,there's already makeup,thank god for that.I once asked a guy friend about what he thinks of girls who undergo plastic surgery.
His reply was 'i don't eliminate people who undergo ps,but definitely not for my girl'.Everybody wants to look better,but you need to face the consequences,of being judged and pointed everywhere you go.It's like you want to see beautiful and nice things but when people do all kinds of things to make them look better,there is always some people out there who's going to bring you down by sayign you're fake
WHY must people judge?You just got to keep improving no matter what.Shit,actually i know i kind of leaving the topic already.i just blog whatever that comes to mind.

Starting A Blog.

I've never thought of wanting to start a blog,until now.i think it might be because i want something to look back on in future.Yes,maybe. It's Monday 2904/13,5.48pm.i'm in my bed,having a bad flu and slight cough,with a cup of hot milo in hand.Wearing an oversized tee,hair tied into a bun,putting on my nerd black glasses.Total unglamness,but that's how everyone looks at home right,who puts on makeup and have their hair styled at home?I hope i'll keep updating my blog,because i'm most of the time a '3 minute hot temp' person.i know it's a fucking bad habit,i'll try to change,try.Just ended a phone call with the boyfriend.i may also be blogging about past events and such.Tata for now!